Im LOVE in ""

tonnes of words appear in my mind

but i just could not write it out

yup, I wanted always that many, that much

And I know, I could not have all of them.

Just let it go or grab it tight

Maybe after a sleep I will know what to do

Or I might just forget it

Let it be

For no reason

I’m emo tonight.

Feeling not that right.

Hope a sweet dream for me and a better day tomorrow.

Today attended a Corporate Visit in PwC

Yup, having a wonderful high tea there

Surprised by the supreme technology of the Lifts

Stunned again by the Speakers’ English fluency

-Perplexed feelings in my mind again-

I named the blog “bleak or promising”

That’s the problem after all

I’m still wondering, wondering & wondering

Actually why I couldn’t have a settled mind is that

I AM NOT PREPARED

Not prepared in terms of many objects:

Separation with my Girl

Lack of entertainment

Lack of time with my family

And bla bla bla….

*Mind stuck suddenly*

Haha, I wrote up this blog just for me to release my uneasy and stress

Nothing much to mention here

Just hope after one day when I have made up my mind

Coming back to this blog and laugh how stupid and undetermined I am during this time

Wanted to write up a blog since long time ago.

but the feeling just wasn’t there.

Just wish that i could finish it today.

Lazy to manage the blogsite

But important is the content, i think

This blog has been discard for a long time

Shouldn’t be anyone will come to visit it

I intend to do this too, as i wanted some place to express out my own secret, my own feeling

These few weeks, a mix of feeling

As known, catastrophe hits Japan

The sadness, despair seeing the world is being destructed

Other than praying, I could do nothing about it.

But this was not the only feeling

there were kinds of emotions struck me days by days

first was friend

second was girlfriend

third was family

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I think i was just too petty over something

Yes, I was angry at that time

but I was also wrong for putting my anger on FB at that time

I hurt my friend.

I couldn’t understand why I was just so frustrated

Maybe I was always looked down by others

But after contemplating for some time

I found out I deserved it

I wasn’t actually that good, that clever

I lack of determination, lack of planning, lack of perseverance

Even when the time i said “I will overpass u”

I was not that confident

By the way, I was truly sorry for the friend

Really deeply sorry

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Girlfriend

I think I have taken granted on her love, her patience

Yet, now i only realized

But even i realized, I just couldn’t control myself to get pissed off

Always having small quarrel with her, assuming myself is always right

Bullshit, BERNARD. You ain’t right all times!!!

Please cherish the girl beside you, even she has lots of weaknesses that u cant tolerate

but she is the one you love isnt?

Sorry for my girl, I should have control my bad temper well.

Reminding myself, not to TAKE GRANTED ON HER LOVE!!!

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Family

I missed them more than what i can describe

After watching the video, I found myself was actually not that fillial at all

I couldn’t remember what i have done that really makes them happy

My results? nah~

My thinking? nah~

My helpfulness? nah~

I just couldn’t identify anything that i have ever contributed much to them

So, Again

I’m reminding myself

Please study hard to get something that can make them proud of

Please work hard and earn as much to repay their love and sweats

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Ya, all things actually depend on me

destiny falls on my own hand.

If you really want to make ur life some impact

Please start to do something and think wisely. BERNARD!!!!!